It has been a month of being out of school and I can honestly say not much has happened to me. But I can at least say that I've expected for that to happen. I guess I can say that is a one winning part about my life, I've expected this and it happened. This may have also contributed to my lack of wanting to write about my life because it has been uneventful so far.
Today I had lunch with my friend and I asked him about a person I am no longer friends with. I just wanted to see if she was a little worse off than me, maybe to fill up that hole that I did the right thing letting her go. However, the opposite effect happened and I heard how the guy she is dating is treating her not so well. In addition, he provided more information that kind of left me speechless. It kinda actually broke my heart. All day I've thought about what happened to her and wonder if I have just given her another chance would this mess have happened? Then I thought how this was all fucked up and that if I never got the attention from this guy, they would have never met and this situation would have never happened. I know whatever happened isn't my fault but I can't help think that this fucked up happenstance occurred and made a horrible fate happened. It doesn't sit well with me because I cannot do anything about it but to just sit and hope for better. I looked to check her page but she deleted me. I don't blame her. From what I can salvage from all of this is that mistakes were made on both sides. I don't know anymore. I wish her well.
